hello readers,i have to do this.
why? cause im UNSATISFIED,right.
so where was i? yeah. thank you to whoever post this for me.
cause im so so desperate for this like a girl who's desperate for something
to let the world knows everything that she felt
ok fine,maybe partly.
cause who are you to know too much aboutme?
oh ya sorry,they would answer pathethicly , "who wants to know about you?"
haha,now get a life.

hey who cares? i have the rights to write anything,ANYTHING about my personal life.
still not happy? be it cause i too dun even care.
have you ever wonder why people don't really bother about you so much?
oh yes oh my hell yeah im talking about you right here
maybe just here,why? cause we'll act normal when we meet up
like nothing happen between us,i didnt know that im good in acting too!
same to my beloved girlfriends.

thank you dearest - i wont be mentioning names
cause if i do it would be already OBVIOUS for you
yeah :]

still not happy?
go tell someone who really WILL be there for you
where do you go when we really need someone?
you say people dun care about you?

cause hey you're the one who's neglecting us,not we.
i thought you already have that blood sister with you
all day and night sharing problems.
now where is she when you need one?

think again,mistake are meant to be made
if you can't accept every of this as your mistake
cause you are stubborn
and if you do and if you ever say "yahh yahh im stubborn,why kpo?"
haha,think again, why bother about your own feelings?
you want people to understand you.
can. but think and think.
you're not the only one facing problems.

you dont want to bother about ppl's problems neither rite?
how can ppl even bother bout your's when you don't even want to share.
hello? its all your problem its all our fault,right?
we DID nothing wrong.

its someone who created this,pathethicly,NOT US.
don't blame me,don't blame my girls.
they aint at fault, you would go "oh my,your girls? ergh do they even treat you as one?"
haha,yeah. they do. asked them,do they?
stop comparing,we treat people equally
you can't see it. i can. they can
we are all young adults.
we are already grown up
donccha think? if this is kinda urm childish
if in a way you're not happy,
you're preety unstatisfied babe,
oh your ALWAYS welcome to just bitch it up
instead of squabbling in your so call onlinediary
and start to expose to everyone else.

im not talking about you but you
"sape makan chilli die terasa pedas"

you say everytime plans cancelled?
THINK LA Oi
who's the one accompanying you to sentosa when you want it so badly?
who's the one who accompany you go do your IC,geylang.
alrights maybe you too accompany her
so? who are they? animal?
then why you have to tell people that you dont have anyone to acommpany you
and stuffs like no one even bother
my phone - LOST
anis replied lyn replied eizah accptble she cant go sha,at the first place rapat or not?
think babe,hav a rest
stop bitchin about others
making them POPULAR was the intention.
lets go geylang alone

too long? my problem :]
cause its mine












hurraaaaaah,im back with more stuffs to go. Oh wells,i have too many "stuffs" to talk about here.
i guess i'll just post some new pictures later part and more..more..more pictures!

lets first start with the day before today,which is? go figure. decided to accompany sayanglyn [haha] to geylang. off to sayanganis crib and off to mine. oh btw,i fought with a cat name:SITI.
anycat by the name of siti,just beware.they DO bite,they really do. trust me this time.

the funny thing is : teckwhye---->bukit panjang-----> TOWN --->
intention to go GEYLANG end up reaching ----> bedok.




hello people,yes i know. its been like decades since i dropped by blogger.
as simple as that my firewall setting blocks something AND BLAH.

haha,guess what? things have gone wild,real wild.
i have nothing else to say but to got through it
whether or not i like it,not i hate it.
yaah.alrights.

last saturday was a day out with some ps ljs members
along with two fareast and one vivo members,overall?
quite satisfying laaa cause i got to spend time with em' all :]

alrights,thanks darlingida for accompanying us even when you're already tired.
infact,accompanying me cause if she was'nt there with me,then i would be lonely
& i know how tired it is to work in the morning and go out at nite which
you have to work the next morning,hehe :]

okaaaays,whatever it is,hope you have a good rest.
sunday was splendid ,i worked fullshift cause ida can't make it.
and so do wan. and yes have you ever wonder working
and being the disher? woahhh,patience neeedddeeed maaayne.

hokay im satisfied hoi hoi.
thanks to udee and hud for dropping by that donut shop ok?
12 for 12 , how cool? plus its colourful la hoi :]
okaay we had roasted dry noodles, some kueh2 which includes badak berendam and some tibits and drinks apple cranberry and GREENTEA!
haha. ok,wait. why am i describing the details about what i ate heh?

nevertheless,i had fun working la.
i miss working with you
not only you, you you and you.
i miss working with you too kak enna!
hurmmm. i pity ma'am yatti very much.
she's undergoing too many problems
and were supposed to handle it at one time.
crazy ryte? we'll just wait and see.

next,this might be a little dry cause
its about my personal life.
i can't afford to loose anyone of you at this point of time.
you had your desicions and i respected it without making it such a BIGDEAL,
like others do. i rather loose someone i just know than looosing someone
i have been treasuring all this while,and of course,its you.

now you see me updating rite,
just for the sake of letting it all out right here
cause NOBODY LISTENS TO MY PROBLEM AT THIS POINT OF TIME.
i guess cause i once did bad,people thout that i am,
continuing the habits that i had last time.
but i can never have the chance to tell how much
hurt and the pain in the ass i felt,why?
cause people don't even bother.
even a single teardrop,nobody will ever care?
yeah,cause all eyes on you.
now i have to step back and just look at you being happy
instead of me,seeing you happy feeling happy at the same time.

gaaah,ego ego ego ego ego :/
i can't deny that im ego when it comes to this.
you even avoided me and you could even go with someone you have hatred feelings about em just to avoid me?
people won't realise but i realise it.
what for i waste my money explaining things
trying my best to settle things out with you
when its already settled and still you treated me like,
someone in the past,the old you.
judging me like a minarep or something liddat.

yaaaah.im sorry
how else am i suppose to prove to you that
im sacrifising my apologise even thou im not in the wrong.
im drifted away,just listen.

this feeling is just for awhile.
what for bother too much?
feeling COME AND GO :/

labels: valensuay vs juliet esai :]

proceed,
argh and to whoevertimayconcern :
stop comming to me and acting like nothing's happening.
cause i dun even have the guts to talk to you.
not only you same goes to your close friend.
the one i've been treasuring like someone i've known for years.
but obviously,not your grilfriend.
whatever you do,just don't hurt her feelings.
i might ended up making it a big fuss .
cause i care.

labels: tag team meeerah kubor juliet esai vs valensuay

those figthers were busily fighthing with each other.
hahaha,its funny you know.
ok . ohmygord!
nabila said lydia's like an animall....
hahahahha.

ok.
im having fun here.
imy dearest.




i just fcking miss blogging,
this internetconnection is seriously testing my patience.
how long must it takes for me to wait for a pathethic internet firewall setting unset blah blah blah,

nonsence ryteee? baaaaah
for the mean time,there will be few who will know my password for my blog already,
gaga,i put my trust on you guys ok? dont go hacking my account
or i'll end up hacking you, get this straight.
haha,strict nyer sumirah :]]]

when it comes to times for strictness,i will
wihtout caring which is which and all.
alrights,
lets get started with eveyrthing.

i would love to share my daily experience with
different situations and all,but sadly i cant.
cause i get distracted easily and forgotten about all.
sad kan? :[
told cha its a sad thing .

sorry guys for not updating.
its not that i wouldnt want to,
just that this comp sucks
and u cant expect me like drping by ppl's house everyday just to like urgh?!
blog? -___-'' now thats pathethic.

well,settled things with bee and we realised that we've not been spending time with each other.
i would be waiting for our outing hunneh,craving for our swensens or maybe hagen's date.
hehehe :DDD

teachers day comming,end fo year comming,rayapuasa comming.
somany events lined up for us! gaaaarrrh -
imma mug hard for this EOY,i dun care.
i wont be dreaming nor "floating" anylonger,
cause i want to feel the way others fly with happiness to get their
results with flying colours unlike mine,just plain black & white.
that i hate most people :]] ngeee~

sooooo,what else? happy teachers day in advanced both my teachers.
be searching for you guy's pictures and be sure to post it in here
to let you guys see how my form and co. looks like ok?
hahaha,evilicious me.

nowi got a story to tell,
would you love to gimme some time maybe?
memories have past,footsteps left behind.
my love for my past has fade away.
i cant avoid to kept remembering about it everytime i look
into something that i randomly do whenever im in the past
and things didnt changed,its sure be a the most hardest things to do,ok?
hahah,well.
old past been comming sia,im scared of horoscopes man
sometimes it happens to be cool and true,not because that by luck ok?
its like the horoscpe which i read either in e morning or late night
is as the same as my daily life im doing ryte now,now how cool it that?

HA-HA,along post kan?
aidil fitiri comming soon,which colour shud i be choosing eh?
this year : can i concentrate more on my hair?
and of course,my baju maybe grey and brown + xtrablack? hehe.

enough is enough meeerah :]
be blogging soon.
thanks to whoever's turn to blog,
lastly,"you will always be loved hunneh"
muah,lalaa~

oh hello dearest diary,yeah.
i know i havenot been bloggin forlike decades and
i couldnt help much but to live widdit
cause this internet is seriously giving me problem :]]]

gaaah,things had gone wild,
and yeaah nowthat i have really move on
and of course,im proud of if,why?
cause i can really see the faith in believing that i could really move on :]
thanksforthosesweeetmemoriesok? itll never be forgotten !

now first and foremost,happy 4monthsary to
both my dearest eizahchinsegf and asyraf!
woah,its already 4months,i have faith in you guys
that youboth can lastlongggggg :]]and asyraf~!
make sure you take good care of my dearest chinese girlfriend ok!
she's the onlyone chinese and no one could replace her :]]]]]]

ok...sooo....
what elsee?still counting down : 4plussmorehours to go:]
andimhapppy la hoiiii :]
hoping that the small gift that i bought for you ,
you will love it!

hehehe :]
i still have many to update about,just that blogger giving me problems
avoiding me from blogging everyday :]
nervetheless,i told you guys i would do anything just to make sure that i can still blog :)










hello there,im still at home,no no.
not mine,this fatty arseholeee here :]
lydia the evermost fatty going ga-ga over vadeh when there's pasarmalam
and all time favourite food : NASI AYAAAAM :]]

gaaah,whatever it is,
im here for a reason ": to blog.
i do anything just to blog.
i can even crawl thru the tasek to blog.
i can even not eat for billion of years just to blog.
i can even sacrifise everything just to blog.