"Life's a Bitch."

Tuesday, June 30, 2009,

life sucks

My Life Sucks.

Sunday, June 28, 2009,

proper update

greetings to all,
yesterday was set for an enjoyable day.

woke up and had some argument with mum.
its normal to fight with someone of ur own sex
living in the same house,ya know?

hah.

daddy and mummy had to wait for me yet again,
sorry honey(s).

headed to bukitgombak to have our dinner.
we have Crabbies..Fish..Soups..Veggies..Beancurd..Squids..
and more!

it just taste marvellous!
thank you mummy.

soon after,
we thought of watching a midnight movie :
Transformers. the revenge of...

unfortunately,
tickets were sold out fast!
lot one and also causewaypoint.

the only places we prefered.

So...
we headed back home then.
met ryn for awhile. you're getting preetier darling. ^^

and done.
today,i met sharell again and i get shagged
of playing pokka cards over and over again.
he won many a times. OF COURSE.
its not fair he kept getting 2s and royal flush all the time.

its been a good week for me thou.
today marks the end of holiday.
i have not yet touch any homework(S)!

toodles.

Saturday, June 27, 2009,

tampines rovers Versus Saf Under 18.

SO!
woke up early in de morning to surf the net,
and get myself ready before meeting fee.

took the bus and mrt to the second last cabin towards pasir ris
and saw shaiful and friends! (: hello guys. ahaha

met si fee ni @ tanjong pagar and giggled our way to tampines.

we couldnt help it but to ask passerbys for the location of the stadium.
whats more hilarious was that the place was just right infront of our eyes.
no wonder that chinese man we asked gave us a very ironic tone of his.
hahahaha.

there were so many "padang" there and we had to figure out

which could possibly be theirs and im the first to spot! wehooots.
its Tampines Rovers Fc Vs SAF Fc (Under 18)

our intention wasnt to watch the soccer match,
we were just waiting for syafiq and have our
lunch cum dinner (:

and ohya,S Leagues Soccer Player were there too! ^^

Soon after the match,waited for that fellar to wash himself
and headed to town to meet kak Roxanne! (:
im sorry sharell but i swear i did nothing in town.
we decided to have dinner @ Fareastplaza,
my oldplace there and was undecided to buy which foood!
sebab kan,curry chicken rice da habis! =(

i bought.. idk what rice tah.. hotplate..?
and the rest was of their own preference.

took some lame pictures and slacked for some time.
as soon as its time to go,
we took 700 while kak roxanne took 106 back to clementi (:

as for today,
family and i are going for dinner!
wehoooots.
more updates later (:

Friday, June 26, 2009,

250609

so,
not many attended class yesterday.
haha people like lydia ju and all skipped class. right?

haha,nevermind. its understood how bore it could be guys.
anyway i thought i would be late but no, ms fong was still
attending to her students. pity her she was tired that she
had to look after two classes at one shot.

its good that blaise are more of an independent class,
so we are left alone during our practical.
i just felt that only my body was there while doing the practical,
my mind was elsewhere,my heart pumping fast thinking of IT.
i kept telling pinhao that i was scared. Fee kept asking my condition
making me feel more anxious and scared at the same time.

thanks ehk pyque kasi filter salah chemical! hahaha.

the moment the clock strucks 5,
i couldnt get my mind to settle down calmly,
instead i started to think negatively of everything..
slacked with zai pin and aliff for smokebreak and
boarded the bus to bukit panjang plaza.

........
still,i wasnt convinced by it thou i see it with my own eyes.
i will consider doing it all over again in 3 days time.
or i'll need to consult the authority capable of reasoning my condition.
hahahahaha. merepek siak mirah.

anyhoos,met sharell yesterday.
its a good thind we didnt fight. played taiti. talked.
had dinner at ljs and back home.

step by step. we'll try.

Rip Michael Jackson.

R.I.P MICHAEL JACKSON.

He Died At the Age of 50,
due to the cause of a cardiac attack.

guess this is a massive lost to everyone ; our musical icon.

hope you'll have a good hereafter life.

Thursday, June 25, 2009,

cheer up fellars!

zaman2 beats society!
lydia,syarif,alyph,mirah!

abang2 unknown!
g sentosa sesame eh?
hahahaha.

lydia,anis,mirah!
hehehe.

mak. eh aida,adiknye. lydia. anis. mirah!

the only person who noes the background of
this picture is anis.

where must we actually go?
geylang or bedok?
hahaha

CHEER UP SWEETHEART!

i read my blogarchives and was laughing my ass out! here,specially for lydia.
http://thename-meeerah.blogspot.com/2007_09_01_archive.html
cheer up sweetie!
remember i snored in that video?
hehehe. i want to post some picture that i can't resist looking at it!!
up there! enjoy! (:

Wednesday, June 24, 2009,

JERMINE BABY!

hehe,this is my jermine baby.

she's one of few ppl who kills my boredom okay!

hehe,will update tmrw? this is for you sweeeetie! mwacks!

AMEK KORANG.
blame the boredom.

specially dedicated to fazz,cheer up ok.
and babyku jermine sebab die bossaaaaan
and and sweethang firz sbb die nk tgk.

hahaha (:
jgn kutok.
aku bosan,tkleh nk salah kan aku.

hahaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

bore bore bore!

no updates yesterday simply because yesterday sucks.
just like any other days this week.
went to school for chemistry practical,
slacked with them guys for smoke break & back to lab.

im sorry aliff that ammonia hydroxide and mixture x or w or y flew to you.
hahaha. i guess i over heated it up and it pops out of the tube.
its dangerous but at the same time its funny!
aliff seems to have a bad day yesterday?
ju accidentally sprinkled to aliff distilled water.
and oh! pinhao's uniform was bleached by some chemicals. pity eu friend. hehe

met wana for awhile and catched up with anugerah.
it was a safe call for wan. she should have choosed group A
to reduce the anxiety. haahah.

im bored.
bye.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009,

blame the boredom.

too many chatters just now but
fazz giler entertained me the most.

hahahaha.

asshole.

Monday, June 22, 2009,

austin perdana again? (:

greetings dear readers!
im back from malaysia already.
that'll explain why i didnt update for the past 3 days right?

well,its been a relazing week for me.
& i really enjoy it very much.

wana and me had an impromtu plan
to catch a movie at lot one on friday.
our aim was to laugh our ass out that day
and we did of course even without the movie.

and guess what?
we went to book a ticket for monster vs alien!
its a cartoon movie show and i love it (:

the patrons in the cinema @ lotone
are somehow what lame
because they kinda not get the irony

of the words they uttered.

not the childrens la,those adults.
while they dont get it,
wana n me were laughing our ass out.

haha.
it maybe a good movie to kill time
not a good movie to be on the top list.

soon after that,we had lunch cum dinner @ foodculture,
both of us ate u-mian hot and spicy noodles.
usually,i be the one eating ban mian while she ate u-mian
but i decided to try it out on my own
and ended up being bloated with spices in my tummy.
hahah.

we slacked behind the shopping center
for awhile while i decided whether or not i should go malaysia.
took the omnibus and accompanied wana for her bus
and rush back home.

this girl right here has been texting me
to hurry up since our "cousin's" mood swing came.
that made me panic and i just packed anything i saw in the bag.

met them and we journeyed ourself to the
bustop behind bplrtstation and took 170 to the checkpoint.

greatfully,not many people were there so we actually had
quite a fast clearance @ the woods checkpoint.
and guess what? i saw billions of my boyfriends there.
behind me.beside me.infront of me.
oh my i was drolling there while waiting for my turn.

haha.

those caucasian middle-age man which i surmise

they might be the youth olympic participants or the hockey team.
and i cant help it but to keep smiling.

hahaha.
& as i walked to the escalator.
one of them actually talked to me.
wuhooooooo,its like a dream came true right? =p

we bought some food and stuffs from
larkin before reaching home.

we slacked and slacked and the guys came.
they bought some food for us! yum yum.
and back to sleep.

fyi,only teenagers were in that house that day.
no parents @ all! (:

the day after that,
we woke up preety late and catch some movies.
we watch this indonesia horror movie.
its a must to watch ok.

because its not only scary but funny @ the same time. ^^
this and that,we prepared ourself to jusco and tesco!

surveyed this and that and went to buy some
foods for dinner cum lunch.

we had fun for that day la hor.
@ night,kak oni and me had a coversation,
and when she went to sleep.

fee and me shared our dirty little secret.
hehe. its safe in here baby! (: (:

the next day,
i fried for them nuggets and hotdogs and watch another movie
saus kacang! its a must to watch too okay guys.
sweet movie with sweet ending.
plus,its not a typical love story.

in the afternoon,
kak oni fee and me went to the nearest shop
which actually it isnt near and dropby the cybercafe there!
whooo. im a member of a cybercafe in austinperdan in malaysia already.

lols.

back home and prepared ourself to head back home.
im home now.

i'm sorry dad. i really love you.

before i start bloggin about my 3 days 2 nights in fee's crib in malaysia,
let me wish all fathers a happy fathers day and we thanked you for your
sacrifises you have made for the family,the love,the care.

to the very special person who means so much to me,
my dad. i am sorry from the bottom of my heart
for not being there fathers day. on the behalf of my brothers too.
we're sorry dad. i really love you and i do care for you.
its just that i am not able to express it to you.
i really thanked you for all the sacrifises you've made for our family.
thank you for working so hard and having many overtimes
just for our family expenses and needs. thank you
for being my dad. im sorry i made you shed tears.
i sorry for making u dissapointed.

but dad,look.
you and mom are the only person who means alot to me.
without you both,i can never go any futher then a single step.
im sorry,dad.

i love you. =(

Thursday, June 18, 2009,

BUDAK AMK
08

these bunch of guys had been there for me.
i love you guys.
only i know. (:

unplanned meet up (:

raya 08'
(:

roses among those boys there.
i miss them.

the time when i had a crush on mamat!
haha,mind me. old picture (:

FAREASTPLAZA LONGJOHNSILVERS
2009

some of the colleagues.

manager enna's birthday.
we actually stay a nite in the shopping center!
its fun okay. haha

the four old bestfriends.
i miss them all.

hazim and me!
mind my stupid face.
i look so young.

hahaha.

after work.

wan hazim and me on a date!
hahha (: fun times.

manager enna's birthday.
fellow old brothers and me!

manager enna,idah and me
to familycashboxstudio @ orchard!
(:

SUNTEC ENGWAH CINEMA ^^
2008.

what we have over here is
yan who loves to chill and talk
on the phone with "ehem2" at the syrup place.
helmi who always wants the best and
love showing off his skills of cashier and close to me.
riffy who always cheers me up when
i see his face. hahahha.
my hotstuff.

resting room!
zul the funny,helmi,my mala! (i miss her la)
anddddd hotstuff! (:

shamira , marishah , sumirah .
cool kan? haha.

Now lemme Proceed to Video!
(: (: (:

this was taken if im not mistaken last year @ Lyn's Crib
which consist of Me,Lydia,Lyn and Anis!
you have to listen properly to this video
because anis would be mimicking the sound of our voice.
haha,that is cute ok anis.
its not to show how nice or fugly or voice is
or whatsoever,its to show how much i
enjoyed life in the past and that i miss em so much. :)

im done here,
look out for more.
^^

yesterday. 170609

greetings.

what happened yesterday was basically back to square one.
talked on the phone with firz for awhile to accompany him
before his friend reached bugis,haha. boy malas =p

as soon as we hang up the phone,
i get myself ready to meet wana.
well of course we went umi's house..and
there was no presence of uncle bai =(
headed up and had several laughters.

thought of meeting the westcoast guys
but as soon as we're out of umi's house,
is wasnt with man and hafiz. buh.
he only called when i was on my way home.

after this post,
i be updating some videos and pictures from the past,
to those involve in these videos we only be the one
smiling from ear to ear because they knew how
invigorated and jubilent we were at that time.

im outta words now.
and oh,he claims that he felt
some sort of sorry and sad for me.

hah,
millions of lies from you is enough for
me to be labelled stupid boy.

bye.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009,

thanks phyque. (:

1.Besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
`Lemme See..my big forehead. i feel invigorated! LoLs.

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
`Panic Bcos He Called Me. ?!?!? fine,him again.

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
`Im Sorry but i swear to God he was the last.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
`Semi-spoiled. kwang3.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
`haha,yes phyque. i would consider too.
`is it pain at all? (:

6. Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
` Yes,but we became total strangers now because he changes sex! =(

7. Do you want someone dead?
`Wish i could even kill that person.

8. What does the last message say?
` "Hmmm ok..ard wat tyme? -Firz"

9. What are you thinking right now?
`im thinking too much,you sure u wanna know?
cause this space ain't gonna be enough. haha

10. Do you wish someone with you right now?
`Yes,in this kind of situation. of course.

11. What time you went to bed last night?
`What's impt is that i slept thru the pain. i can't remember.

12. Where did you buy the t-shirt that you're wearing now?
`Plaza Singapura - Outfitter Girls.

13. Is someone in your mind?
`Yes. Just him.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
`Firz Cutie! ^^ (he's cute ya know)

15. 10 people tagged to do this quiz :
1. Yanie
2. Lydia
3 Teck Yi
4. Anis
5.Peeqa
6. Iqa Twadd
7. Helmi
8. Pin Hao
9. Phyque
10. Jermine

16. Who is 2 having relationship with ?
`SIM TECK YI! Blissfully in love ehk.
Strangers,Don't Destroy Theirs Like
You Destroyed Mine Please. ^^

17. Is 3 male or female ?
`Sometimes he seems like a gay to me ah,
`flirt with my guyclassmates.sorry lydia. haha

18. If 3 & 5 get together, would it be a good thing ?
`its best for 3 to stick to 2. (:

19. What is 1 studying about ?
`She's studying about my emotions
`and the problem i am facing,kan 1? hehe

20. When was the last time you had a chat with 5 ?
`thru sms was this morning. (:

21. Is 4 single ?
`Don't think so. ryte sweetie? hehe.

22. Say something about 2 .
`I met her since i had curly hair. PRIMARY ONE!

23. What do you think about 3 & 6 being together ?
`i've told many times. its better for 3 to stick with 2,omg. haha

24. Describe 1.
`She's my best and no one can resemble her. i love her deeply lah!

25. What will you do if 5 & 6 fight ?
`Both of them are friends and my love ones,hell no!
`i would sort it out okay. hehe .

26. Do you like 5?
`infact,i love her. (:

27. Who is 7 to you ?
`he's my old classmate cum colleague whom i used to sleep with at chalet.
(hahaha,only anis,yanie,teckyi,helmi and lydia knows this!)

28. Is 7 & 2 enemy ?
`No la! hahaha. They Wont.

29. Do you love 10 ?
`She's my loverdoveygf (:

30. What do you do if 8 decided to commit suicide ?
`PINHAO,u ever do that. i swear i do that before u kay.
`so please dont. hahaha. (:

31. How long have you been friends with 9 ?
`phyque,rape lame phyque? 2years in exact.

32. Say something random to them. 1 - 10.
`sorry zai tk letak name kau. kau tkde blog uh. ily la brodar. haha.
`tkde link sial!

the last goodbye.

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he finally said it.

He finally did,he finally uttered the words that i yearned from him.
that was what he wanted all this while. i knew it. fate is'nt with us all along.
We had to go on seperate ways. Thanks to whoever had ruined this.
Especially you Sidek. You Ruined My heart,love and life.
i swear that this might be heartaching now but as i grow
i promise this is a trivial memory that i wish i never got into.
what's there to be sad about guys? the thing is,i had never been cheated this way.
where was my mistake that i did to deserve all this? its easy for you guys
to be feeling me but i am the one enduring the pain for months & months.
it was simply endless. i need time to heal and once its heal i wont look back.
i wont lick back what i have shit onto what i had spit onto. its over.
its officially over and i hope people who had been yearning for me to feel this way.

guess what? you won.
and to you sidek,hope you lead a happy life.
freedom is with you now. lucks in life.

NEVERTHELESS,
the only thing to make me feel jubilent
is to bring MEEERAH BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha,fine. you wont understand.
i wish to meet apeaz soon. =(
and oh,one more sweetheart that i left out for my recent post,
thanks dearest iqa for cheering me up! love you la . hehe.

alrights.
i miss umi and k sha.
update later.

Monday, June 15, 2009,

thanks for hearing me out.

Greetings DARLINGS. ^^

first and foremost,before i start blabbering about my daily life today,
i want to show my appreciation to
DEAREST Fazz , Su and Elfyan
For hearing me out.

thank you so much for showing ur care towards me.
your words are my wisdom for me to be strong.
i will one day show u guys that im capable of it.

LOVE YOU ALL LAH!

Thanks wana For accompanying me the whole day today.
thanks for rubbing my back when i sang because of you out loud
in the middle of the expressway,on the way to west coast.
haha,i know you're feeling it. =p

so as you can see,
i just came back from westcoast
from meeting my cliques living there.

im so sorry fazz and mamat because i "paitao-ed" you guys.
sorry for not comming down.
im so sorry umi and kak sha because we "paitao-ed" you love ones.
sorry for not comming down.

and we had fun today with
afiq(my 15 year old cutestuff)
iskandar(mr bulu mata panjang)
unknown named ( Mr Age privacy)
wana and me!

we slacked at this unsual place and then void deck
where we had rounds out taiti game.
i won many times! weeeeeeee,haha.
and then to soccer court to watch them play
and im back home!

daddy scold me seh.
mummy said i go amk then i go bp
when i said i go clementi.
wahlao.

haha.

my cutestuff kana bully!
kwang3.

my son.
nama gelaran ashriq daniel.
nama betol hafiz.
hahaha.
anak orang kasi name tk bermakna sia mirah.

my daughter
nama gelaran tiara batrisha
nama betol shasha (:

haish,its difficult to tc of 2 babies ok.
otw kat perut ni ade lagi.
check out for more sons and daughters k.

haha ^^

you lied too much.

i hate you sidek.

u ruined my life.

Sunday, June 14, 2009,

because of you.

its not just a lyric. its something that really meant a thing.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I will never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you..

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