Is it deserving for me to be living in the world with a human
full of vengance and anger? Do i deserve all those vulgarities?

it seems to me that many from my observation
are having their individual relationship problems now.
what is it with relationship nowadays?

no denials,i missed baby very much but the fact
that we have been having arguments for the past few days
since the outbreak of the issue we had that week,
it didnt seemed to have a stop to it.

you know what a feel?
i feel tired.i felt that i had enough of all this.
i felt that i dont deserved this.

to you dear,thought you might not be reading this..
your presence made my life worthwhile even for a second.
knowing you made me feel secured and loved.
you told me you have forgotten about that women of your past,
what now? you suddenly remembered her and it got stuck on your brain?

that was it? no being able to forget about your ex
because your mum's relation with hers were in good terms?
i want me to understand your situation. yeah,right.
for your own information. i did mister,
but u expect me to comprehend every single matters in you.
wont you want to spare some thoughts and feelings for me?
why would you have to keep her picture,almost all when you've forgotten about her?
am i a replacement for her for just awhile? was that all that you've wished for?
because i dont deserved to be loving someone who dedicate more of his
love for his beloved ex. look,things now have gone haywire and its beyond
my capabilities to sort things out between us.

im not saying i've lost hope for you totally,
but all this arguments that are re-occuring.
its just not me. its just not my style of life.
i dont do that in a relationship. you caused it mister..
i just dissapointed and speechless with everything.

i dont know how to talk to you.
i dont know how to cry for you.
i dont know what i want.
i dont know if this is true.

i really dont know.
and at this moment of time,
nothing else matters but you.

sad to say.
you didnt bother.

its as if nothing had happened.
you know what? i'll do anything for your lovesake.
giving u a choice will help you and i'll help you along.
if you really want that lady of the past back,
you can have it. I GIVE UP.

and please,
im not telling anyone our problem.
it was just a feeling for me.
and now. i felt like i dont deserved this.

end of story.farewell.





class outing -
Eurasian something something was average yet interesting.
Singapore Flyer Was superbly Fun : not because we too avid,
just that the whole scene was fun !

school -
im determined to try to sacrifise every leisure time for studies.
i really understand what teachers of teckwhyesec has been
nagging on us everysingle day. they know better.
everytime they talked about how they do not have any
confidence on a good number of my classmates qualifying to Poly,
i became petrified. its a big knock out for me.

despite working hard eveyrsingle day,
i knew that its not enough to qualify for Poly Entry.
what a life.

Love -
reoccuring fights had been happening between us.
i felt like giving up but i knew that wasnt the only way to resolve it.
i be meeting him tommorow. hurrrrrrah baby! missed him so.

and and and and and..
my face appeared in bukitpjg's magazine!
big applause for me. hahahahaha.
its as if i've done so well,wake up mirah
pull up your socks,tighten your shoe.
that was just n level.

bye





a short update about my long lost past i had.
i missed them very much,no denials.
however still,im loving my life now.
(: (: (:

Cheers.

Greetings one an all.
I missed his caress,his presence,his hugs already. boo =(

wished saturday was today.
speaking of which...we're gonna catch a movie this saturday.
but im unsure about the choices present:
should i go for Comming soon introduced by Lydia?
i've watched the trailer and im amazed by it..
i couldnt imagine myself in the cinema trying my best
not to exhale the sounds that will give me shivers down my spine.

errgh.
however still,i still have action movies in mind like
the movie named Push and also..the one baby mentioned Dragonball.
or should i watch all of em in a day? ahak! dream on bitch.

its alright for the moment,
i'll just let bby decide on the showtime and movie ^^

i've got some pictures to upload.
sure you guys be more interested in pictures then reading the contents.

the post upthere would be a post for today ^^

Im Sure you people had noticed how times travel like the speed of light,right?
It seemed to me that this 3Months is equivalent to 3 weeks and its ongoing still.

Soon,Five Blaise will be facing the Challenge
of what we have been thirsthing for.
With similar passions,high aims and great dreams..
I'm preety sure that this year's batch will do better.

Hopefully. ^^

Moving on,
It was a titanic dissapoinment to get 18 points for CA1.
Chemistry brought my science marks down,
Emaths was a drastic flunk of marks,
Malay was a suprisingly Just passed grades..

Huge dissapointment on me.
However..*pat on tehe back*
that i had FINALLY* (just this year) bucked up
and pulled up my socks way up high for Add Maths.

It's not an easy subject but its a challenging and fun one.
Mid's comming and i have to strive harder.
No doubts,competitors in Blaise this year are more devoted now.

Is'nt that a good sign?
oh wells,i really want an amaths tutor,please?

=(
p/s : phyque! mercu pa?

*evil grins*

^^

You just have to ogled through today's date and you know what it is.
It marks the 2nd Monthsary with Muhd Sidek Bin Fakri! ^^



check one two.....

arrgghhhhh,common dear one and all!
shout along with me!

this is the moment i have been yearning for all my life.
the fact that my internet had not been activating due
to the problems faced by this pathetic computer which is recovered,
we have to start all over again....apply...wait..and wait...wait.

and my baby's back.
the first thing that chinese guy had me to check for availability of internet,
was that i checked my blogsite and appeared hariraya song?!

whatthefcuk? i felt mortified by this blog man,damn.
haha. anyways...glad that its back and we as a family
will be served a free one year MIOTV subscription.
it sure do sounds like a great deal. ^^

update more later!