I MISS BLOGGING.
I WANT MY GETAWAY SOON.
I WANT TO START SCHOOL SOON.
I HATE BASTARDS.

but i love my friends who have been making me smile.
huraaaaah. =D

Just another day today and im freaking tired.

Headstart : to all my chinese friends,
Happy New Year to all of you. ^^
and to each and everyone out there,
Happy Valentine's Day. <3

speaking of which,
didnt celebrate valentines day with anyone special this year.
as planned,was supposed to help out fee at sakura for sat,sun and monday.
friday's crowd was freaking packed with bookings for their dinner.
gosh and this is the first time this year i was totally freaked out
with work because it was too tiring,more then my current workplace.

whatever it is,
Thank God it's over. It was just for 2 days and we're done.
because the next day was lesser crowds and lesser bookings.
so.. we were released in the afternoon.

Decided to meet him today. Cancelled but then we finally met.
Hurrah. This and that.. was supposed to meet lyn and ended up
meeting nabila! yeay-ness. more and more chit chat session and im home!

im meeting my girls today~! <3

Work was superb with beloved tah jie and mama sha'non. (:
met lyn and friends for awhile and headed to meet him.
and this is gonna be a short post before this stupid comp shuts.
and im done now.


p/s : he made my day. <3

Huraaaaaaaaaaah,
i guess i be the only person on earth
who knows how jubilant i felt
the moment i get to spend everything
for shopping just to make myself smile.

i've been keeping this desires since last year
due to o levels and this is the very right time
for me to shop and what's more..
the job opportunity given gave me big bucks $$

ahhh,despite feeling low for the past few days,
friends never fails to make me smile.
i shall thanks first and foremost lyn for that endless of laughters.
followed by girlfriends ( you know who you are)
my guys.. and yan's friends too. its fun hanging out with them ya know.
STRESS FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:

moving on..
SUPER JUNIOR TICKETS AT KL HAS BEEN SUCCESFULLY TRANSACTED.
OH FUCK,HELL IM MEETING THEM.. AND HELL WE'RE COMMING EARLY.
WE'RE FCKING GONNA QUE UP JUST TO STAND INFRONT TO SEE THEM.
TRUST ME,IM FREAKING EXCITED NOW. HURAAAAH.
WANAAAA,LET'S GO KL TOGETHER. WEEEEEEEEEEE (:

ive got my freaking off for three days
and gotta help cousins out at sakura.
hurrrah. making bucks again = shopping.

ah,im being random.
and im meeting someone new today.

(:

"I never knew until that moment how bad it could hurt to
lose something you never really had and the
flame of love is now just a cold loneliness."




Yes,As you can see i've unprivatised my blog back again
because i just can't help it but to miss blogging.
Gosh,You know how much pain and heartaches i suffered
seeing my blog in loneliness? -_-

i've removed my tagboard just to avoid
anymore stupid matters from weirdos here.
(:

and im going to be random about...now.

i've been killing my time for the past 4 months
working and making big bucks for shopping..
spending time with beloved ones and slacking with cliques!
i just wish to smile everyday just to make myself feel better.

speaking of which,
i shall thank my friends and love ones for being there.
i've been thru those thick and thins and those who really
was there to stand by me should know how hard it is for me
to overcome such circumstances. still,i managed to pull it through.
not,without you guys. <3

Met lyn yan and cliques yesterday.
nabila and lydia came for awhile and i had
this superb girls session story sharing with
nabila and to my amazement,i shed tears.
i shed tears thinking such humans exist in this world.

why would they even have to hurt us in many ways?
after all those sacrifises we had done for you,
did you realised and at the least appreciate it?
did you?

i know,humanatures and unevitable
but in this cruel world,we have our own choice to choose,
we have our own desicions to make.

its just whether the individual
choose to be good or bad and thats what hurts the most.

argh,
i just don't want to get too emotional on my first proper post.

and to you boy,
even if we just knew each other and you left,
i still couldnt get my mind off you. i will,soon.
i just need time.

"he's always in desired,he's always remembered..
it's him,who's always on my mind"



This is what am talking about!!!
And we're grabbing the rockpitt tickets. Gosh.
I'm Meeting My babyloveeeeeee and i can't wait!
heading fareast on tuesday to create our own teeshirt.

okay.
i'm on cloud nine now.

<3

LOVE LOVE LOVE.
it's 40 more days to go & i freaking sexited! =D
i can't wait and what's more we be having boysssss to join us! (:

Do every single one of you know how it feels to be cheated on their feelings
and how much it hurts to know that after all this while the person was
just playing with your feelings and faking it all this while?

Well if you don't let me tell you personally that it really hurts.
Deep inside , i could a burning ache on my chest ..
a pinch on my heart.

fcuk im being so emotional but who cares?
everyone owns a feeling and i deserve to own one.

why do you have to say things when you know you dont mean it?
why do you have to pretend as if you were soooo into it when you're not?
why cant you say it right infront of me that this was just a game.

i hate you for making me feel like this.
i've been trying hard to stand up on my own feet,
to leave the past behind and to live a new life.
but everytime i tried,i failed.

i failed to be strong.
i failed to look on the bright side.

and because i met such humans like you,
i be stuck in a world full of loneliness and phobia.

i hate this feeling right here.
there's been too much heartache and pain,
i dont if i can face it again.


FCUK.