argh.

hello sunshines. i've been away from comp for days already.
soo many things been happening lately.

little brother has finally cut his p___ and i was being very very
cautious at every single move he made since that tingling stuff
is still not yet ready for rough movements * (:

and to whoever the tagger is,
thank you for taggin and if you're tagging
just for the sake of annoying me then be it (:
i don't mind shits nor jokes nor critism. ok?
may your flight be a safe one. laos or whatever it is. hah.


moving on fellars. so sorry faaaaan for today's session.
my mood was swinging from left to right -_-"
dad was being very _________.
mom? haha,she's totally fine.

glad both mom and dad was fine with my results.
and it was an unexpected one. i can't believe that it's mine.
whatever it is,i ain't bragging. i kept my results as confidential.
hahaha.

i had fun talking to ex on the phone last night.
reminiscing the past with every single one of em'.


well that reminds me of which that happened yesterday.
i'm sorry that i neglected you.
i'm sorry that things between us doesnt work.
i'm sorry for not replying your messages.
i'm sorry for not being there when you need ME.
i'm sorry that you kept high hopes for me.
i'm sorry that i did not hold on tite to my promises.
i'm sorry that i have let you down.
i'm sorry that because of me,you're all shattered.

=/

maths camp- acap,ayie,ramadzan. korang kaki gerek. haha
ss class - i came late for it. i wasnt informed about anything. haha
chem and maths homeworks are partly done . however still,
i have few more papers to be done by the end of this 3rd week.

ska gig's comming up. sorry lyn im not able to tag along with you guys today.
ill be very busy today,soon after im back home from here.
im currently with wana at bp's library to do some catch ups. =]

hippy horraaaay fee's gonna have a sleepover today.
aku rindu kau la by. hahaha. ohya,we had lunch together that day
with her mr "is it you" hahaha. =]

shafiz,if you're reading this..great cause aku rindu kau (:

i don't really rely on horoscope but i do refer to it daily (:



i could'nt care less my dear (:

'O' level national examination is just in hours time.
all the best to all candidates taking the papers tommorow.

i miss my feedaaz. if you're reading this post,
i think its time for us to hang out already.

ituari tak cukop la!

(:




http://weboffudge.blogspot.com/2008/05/fragrance-prince.html

this link right here is'nt any virus or anything.
it's one of a singaporean blogger who blogs about this
very interesting article that came out on newpaper today and news.

what enticed me most on today's paper was this.

it is so related to what had happened recently in school and class.
about the rights of bloggers to indite just about anything in their
so called online diary; like what i am currently doing now.

personally ,i felt that officials have the right to
invoke severe action towards him because the way he
mentioned about 'this is my personal blog and i can say what i deem fit'
explains well his intentions but not to the minorities.

So so so... what is this pathetic malay man (again, it have to be a MALAY!!!!) doing in the train? ... Aiya....stupid MALAYS!! Even if you are a Malay and am reading this... good for you..coz this is my personal blog and i can say what i deem fit.... if u wana defend yourself.... i suggest you arm youself with education and a motor mouth to compete against me.. else dont bother... coz i will bet my life on the line that, should you challenge me in a conversation... you will lose like what a true malay would.... LIKE FUCK !!! -sexy fragrance prince.

that was partially to what he had posted in blog & with realisation ,
a public apology was made to his personal blog.

=)

now,enough of all that. it's quite a draggy day for me.
co-currently,my mates are balded and they look like notty boys? lmao!
OM was being very nice to me today. but still.
im having this denying sympts about that morning situation. -_-"

im watching this suzila rolling on suriachannel. =)

acap , echa , eiqa , ju , elme and along with me was the faggs
left in school after su left with iman for lunch and descartes for lot 1.

wehee~ im am still happy.
goodbye and goodnight for now.

shaffffffiiiiizzzzz takmo sedih please? =)



aku amat menyayangi sha dan lyn kerana... (:
hanya TUHAN sahaja yang tahu (:

i'm still fine with everything despite this and that.
i just can't feel like you do fellar (:

oh need no worries,it's nothing between me and lydia now.
we're totally fine.

just shut your big gap,please.

hello readers.
i bought 1 big dairymilkhazelnut for shafiz to consume it.
but melancholy, those bunch of dutches took away half of it.
sorry fhiez. MT class was more of one hour wasted.

although i knew that my national examination for o level malay
will be held on the first week of june holiday and i have exactly
one week left to brush up every sectors im weak at =)

who says malay does'nt need revision? you see;
NOTHING COME OUT OF NOTHING. bare that in mind.



happy vesak day specially to dear yuan tong .
my ph was basically planned for one movie and meetups.
everyone was avid to share their stories about that story.
i say, its 4 out of 5. it gave me thrills only for 2 parts.

soon after,met shah and ida and hazim and spike and wait,who's the other 2 couples?
whatever it is,i managed to have some catchups with idasayang and well,others too.
we had donuts!! we had..urm? clam cowder.

i just can't even explain briefly what's happening to fep now.
totally out of control of everything. just about everything.
done for now. belated birthday to dearest sha! =)
wehee girlfie lyn would be up reaaaal soon. i love you cupid! haha.


what makes you think it was. lmao (:






Dear,

having fat hopes that things would be alright,but nothing happened. having the courage to make the first move but it doesnt worked. having the right choice to do but were'nt appreciated. im left with nobody by my side. with noonesle but me. been listening to those who have their words to say. i guess this was meant to be. a simple word as sorry won't be taken as sincerity. n more friends,no more laughters,no more this and that. i just hope i'll be alright soon. tears kept rolling down since aweek ago. it just won't stop. nevermind. cheer up mirah. i know you can.

=(

accusation sucks when it is'nt true at all.
i am left with nothing to say about this matter im currently facing.

everyone is making use of my weakness ; friendship.
i can't deny that i miss the old united descartes where we really had fun.
i can't believe we all are drifting apart .

i can't believe that jealousy can led to very severe problems.

thanks my dearest one of all, michelle for coaxing me.
glad to say that i still do have the others on my back.
ziiiliin and all was right to say what they felt and i felt that
they were true. su was right too.

let's just trust no one; it might work.

i did not start anything at all. not that im deny-ing.
but its the truth that the hatred feelings started from
someone who ought of talking bad about me behind my back.

who likes people who talk bad behind their back
and telling other people to be your allies and
join along you to have hatred feelings towards me?

i might be at a loosing end but for all i know,
i was not the one who started all this.
it's because they care for me that i told them what went wrong.

i did that with good intentions. what about you?
teck yi apologised but i can clearly see that it was'nt sincere.
ziiilin then said that i would not be the person who shud apologised.
i pity shairfah very much that she had to avoid talking to me and mixing with yasmin.

if this matter were to be settled,im telling all of you
who was darn stupid to follow them along that
i would negotiate with only lydia and teck yi.
to those extra people,im sorry.
i didnt know that you listened to other people easily.
it's because this matter is between us,you guys are losers.

those who try to get stories from me and then go telling them.
aren't that dumb? haha. common,it's a small matter.
and it can be solved for sure i believed.

=)



hello lovelies;I started my day off with a disconsolation feeling.
i was cheerless and couldnt even succor myself to beam.

hows that? i was affected badly after thinking where i went wrong.
morning was quite lethargic for me because i made it that way.
big apologies to mr silvam for interrupting your lesson and
i like the kind of teacher he is because he tends to scold with reasons.
maybe because he was cocked up with my other classmates behaviour too,
that he had to show tantrums to me because mainly,i was the one.

however still,soon after the bell rang. he smiled widely from ear to ear to me.
emaths and amaths revision was done with confidence =]

i had not received back my mids results but for all i know was that,
i've gotten a pass for english,physics,social studs .
there is still more to come and i will surely choke badly for AMATHS!

however still,thou today was a short day,they managed to bring back a smile to me.
thanksanissyafiqshafizzaihelmiafiqJu and moremoremoreeeee.
bubble tea lot one and headed back abode =]]]]]

lastly,
coercion towards a mortal as vengeance,
personally i think that it isnt e rite thing to do.
because i believe more in negotiating =)
auricular are mend to kept as private ,
when it is'nt a good thing to burst it out to others.

think before you act.
better luck next time lovelies.




MEEERAH.


FARAH BANSO GEMAR BERMAIN DRUM.


PHIEZ SUKE SEDUT STRAW.


IBUKU YANG KETOT. =)

dear diary,

i was in doldrum all day today.
without realising droplets of tears kept strolling down my cheeks.

i never knew what my mom and fhiez's dad said was true about her.
ironically,we are at losing wits . true zai.

but really. this is the real time to be optimist
frm this incident,i will be able to see,
which is the friend that stands by my side and
which is one that will watch me dying alone here.

for whoever who might think that none of your friends are important,
think again. you're mentally disabled to be there all alone w/o guidance.
if you think a friend was just for company of you being alone, well guys.

you might be having some minor errors in your thinking.
everyone have the rite to think whats best for them.
being confidence and arrogant isnt wrong at all but being
overlimit and unrealistic would be the best that leds to failure.

who wants to see themselves as a failure?
nobody would not even me.
just that it will happen to us sooner or later.
now that would be the perfect time for you to stop yielding
and think positive for whats to come.

remember mirah,
take denunciation as someone who are covetous of you.
don't let this small minor miscue pull you down.
green-eyed people have always got bad intentions.

no to say that they are animals but they are humans like us.
just because the usage of brains were misused badly,"this" occured.
my culpability for what i have been acquiesent was with willings.

nothing more or less i could think of for now.
thanks sharifah and yamin for the thruth.
thanks zai,fhiez,fiq,phyque,helmi,ju for your side.
thanks mom for your guidance and advices.
thanks fhiez and zai for believing in me.

im not in a mood to enjoy for this comming night tour.
so,
-i went shopping with 60 bucks huh?
-all that were'nt sincere huh?
-having small matters like class tshirts
to be brought as a big matter huh?

i can't forced you to like me
nor i can force you to hate me.

for all i know is that,
this isnt a win-win situation.
i don't want to win pride or dgnity.
i've save em' safely.

this is not sacarsm,this is what that comes within deep inside.
your choice to believe because afterall you're the one who has
been lying to yourself to hate each and single one of us,
turn by turn.

i shall continue imperative in my bedroom.
night lovelies. =(

been neglecting daily rants since friday.
not because i didnt want to but Time avoided me.

past thursday and friday was quite a short day.
we had tons of laughters and fun forming up music videos.
thanks to phiez for being the cameraman and both other faggs,
phyque and helmi for being the background dancers while taping.

i had fun riding cool bicycle owned by sonic n friends.
they had deep interest in bikes that i can see diy stuffs. =B
pakcik lamsoon,you're the reason for my joy and happiness =)

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as for past friday,half day for us.
13 absentism from descartes students became an issue to sir imran.
we had to listened to the same naggings that he have in mind.

we then had our breakfast and headed to the usual place.
i am not regretting for having that as a
praxis since its what i dote on.


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saturday,the day before mother's day.
we went to search for mother's day present with fhiez and banso.
LAUGHTERS LAUGHTERS AND MORE LAUGHTERS.

fareast plaza to wisma to lido 8 and had our rest at SB.
bought 2 frappes and thats when we got high while waiting
for ruzaini's presence (he was otw from dinner w his fams)

headed lido 8 back again from wisma because sha and ida were there.
and yesaaaaa finally after hell of waiting for months then,finally
i get to have a long conversation with ida ida ida ida and ida.

cheer up little kiddo,i have been in your shoe once.
the same old situation girl and if i can i knew you do too.
whatever it is,budak giler outing is still on! =)

after reminiscing the past in ljsfep,i then decided
to take 700A back home. glad that parents are'nt naggy today.

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yesterday. sunday.

its mother's day today and would love to wish
every mother : be it mother in law,mother mary
mother this mother that. as along as they are the one
who have been raising their love ones with care and concern,
they are the walls that have been completing our life.

they are what we call,MOM.

and to you dearest of all :
sabariah binte mohd.

God made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old;
He made her smile of the sunshine.
And He moulded her heart of pure gold;
In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,
In her cheeks fair roses you see;
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me.

I LOVE YOU. i really do.

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surmising,misunderstanding worsen the situation.
because i have to put my mindset to somewhere else.
personal i feel that i am probably very weak in friendship.

i can never say that i would'nt need them because i do.
i can never say they are'nt important to me cause they do.
i can never want to loose them,not even one becauce i choosed not to.
i can never thought of neglecting them because i don't want to hurt myself.

but this vicious cycle has been repeating for itself.
i can never be aware of the way i treated others.
others might see and tend to dispised it .

deep bottom from my heart,
i would like to apologies to anis,fhiez and whoever that
i have been making your life a misery.

im sorry i was wrong.
im sorry that you hated me.
im sorry for my weakness.
im sorry for everything.

be it everything,i really am sorry.
so people. i'm typing with experience.
never neglect your friends.
when you have misunderstanding and fought against each other
don't forget to think and sort things out because
afterall,friends are the one who would make your life better,really.

bagaikan bumi memijak lubuk hatiku.

segala yang tersirat di hati tidak terkata.
mungkin ini takdir hidup ku yang tak akan pernah berubah.
mungkin ini cabaranku yang kian mencurah.

i never ought it could be this way. =((((((










itd 1155 and am already back home,reason because
we had only one emaths (n-level) paper today.
despite the paper would not be reflected in my report book,
i still did fened to have a bit of recap in my past year books and notes.

the paper was kinda average for me and many felt that the paper
was an insufficient of time. which is,yes i do think so.

zai lydia and me decided to head back home since
the other POA students will be having their papers.
lucks to descartes! mwah mwah mwaaaaah =)

i had green tea in the morning,
usual place and had a conversation with haq for awhile.
there came teck yi teryl ju yasmin and the others.

=).
i wanna watch in the blue.
i wanna watch what happens in vegas
i wanna catch a movie soon,please?

=(.
BESOK LAST PAPER AKU LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
meaning,we'll be having party . do drop by :))))

left with amaths p2 and emaths (o-level)



LETS HAVE A MINUTE OF THANKSGIVING SESSION!
-_-. thanks to :

-dad for one big greentea bottle and a can of green tea drink.
-zai and elme for comming down pending just to have revisions with me.
-thanks zai for treating us ljs,hahahaha. you anccccch =)))
-thanks for today guys.

-thanks to shafiz shafiz shafiz.
the chocs , the green tea bottle ( so sweet of you fcuker. hahaha)
and the ride back home. hahahahah,macam kau anta gituk,lols.

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enough of that and i've nothing much to say about exams.
if you knw you've studied for it then you would have done well.
if you dont,meaning there's nothing else for you to talk about.

let's be evil because it seems like there is no such thing as
being satisfied for what you want which you won't have it.

I miss lyn,nabila and sha big time.
and i managed to hugged lyn early morning.
wehee =))

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enough said. im left with a shattered heart.
nobodyseems to care because they have their's to mend.

im ok with it.

i can't stop sobbing.

i was totally off mood by man on fire tuned in channel 5 just now.
this is the reason why i have been telling my friends,strangers or anyone
to start treasuring the one you love most. start appreciating what you have.
start to be thankful for love care or anyone,anything that has been there.

you wouldnt want to feel deplore when things goes wrong.
when you don't have the chance to say how much you love em'.
you wouldnt want to have life without the one you lovemost.

i'm totally not alright.
i miss being hugged.
i miss being kissed.
i miss being cared.
i miss being accompanied.
i miss being attached.
i miss quarells. i miss problems.
i miss being once,a specialsomeone.

shortly,i miss LOVE.
i miss rayhan.i miss aidil.i miss qari.i miss yan.
i miss ZUL.i miss bboy.i miss eddy.i miss PAAN.
i miss fadzrul.i miss syam.i miss mr troy.i miss ELVYAN.
i miss too,mr HERNANDEZ.

im left with nothing else to say ,
lets just hope my life would be alright.

thanks fhiez,zai and jia rong for making my day today.
this kinda friends are the one who has been there.
haha. i hope you guys love my presence just like i do.

=) remember one thing.
i have several principle in life.
my dictionary says that when you be nice to me,
i promise i won't hurt you but if you do,
i'm just telling ya cause you're messing witha wrong person.

nights hunneys . =(






Took several videos about rempit and knocking of head to head.
surfed the net,played takraw and soccer as well.
i sound like a guy. WTH?! hahahahaha,siak aje. im straight please.

however,today was a bit differ from any other days in zai's house.
that fun jokes and bullies finally led to futher aggrevation of the situation
it has become a CRIME ; descartes syndrome people.

im off back home soon after the panics and stuffs.
i miss being love. bye korang sumer;
airmata ku berkaca-kaca ditibai kesedihan,
sebak didada membuat ku merasa pilu.

HAHA. =/

diekni shafiz. die sering buat aku gelak. hahaha.
where are we? who are you?
i think i should find a safer place to go.
haha,*staggered thru with confidence*

legs became wobbly while walking.
HAHAHAHAH!

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anch yang warna merah tadi tu and same colour baju tu.
yang biler nak naik bus terjalan salah route tu..

CUTE EH ORANG DIE FEE?
tapi _______ datang kat aku pun cute .
hahaha. everything seems so funny to me.
=)

ah abeh? suke hati aku la da lamer tak update. kau susah apesal?

hahaha,hello dear readers and i miss blogging.
you guys should have already know that its MYE week,
and for sure i mugging real hard to proclaim good results.

i'm left with tons of maths paper both A and E maths,
o and n level standard and also chemistry.

so far,i guess the papers i took was fine since i've revised for it.
but lets put aside history which i knew i would fail for sure.
due to the fact that i totally hate that subject and im left with no hopes.

really.

however,thou i have been working hard for it,
i did too have some fun for repeated days.
arguments with little kids,particularly to those
i've spit my everything directly at her face,
misconceptions with dear old chinese girlfriend
and lastly "HOTEL" check-in mate.

hahahahahhaha.
that is,zaini's house.

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THURSDAY :
as for today,labour day,public holiday.
i had a total of TWELVEEEEEEE hours of sleep since yesterday.
i was too shagged that dad told me i did sleeptalking about school.
hahahahaha,confirm kelakar kan kalau aku dengar ape aku kate?

mum woke meup because she offer's us for a breakfast at BB.
=) oh thanks dear mum for the treat and the stuffs you bought.
back home and cuzzfee called. i was asked to accompany her to find PRESENTS!

ahaha,unfortunately we only found it right before we headed home.
from fee's crib to jurong to ochard to wisma,taka,fareast,taka,wisma and HOME!
she bought that ripcurl tee and i was sooooooooooo in it for cash.

i want that
FOX JACKET.FOX 3/4 SHORTS.WH's BLACK PANTS.
MANGO BLACK TEE.VOLCOM TEESHERT.WHITE SKIRT.
TOPSHOP SANDAL.RIPCURL SANDAL.PULL AND BEAR SKIRT.
PULL AND BEAR JACKET. HELPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

I WANT MONEY . I NEED CASH. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$
ahahaha.

bye la korang. jia rong , zai and all had no plans for today.
nak tgk gmbr? nak ? nak? hahahahahahahaha.

thanks naz for the treat,you're sucha gooooood dadddy.
HAHAH,bye korg.
besok malay.

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WEEEEE ! FRIDAY!