"Life's a Bitch."

Friday, May 15, 2009,

whats up with that?

greetings one and all,

i came to wana's crib for the sake of
reading all the tags people have been tagging.
hahaha,i am not seriously affected by your cheap words people.

whud did you just called me,cheap? haha
i say,cheap people like me dont mnd cheap comments from you.
and huraaah,i dont give a fckng damn to all of ya words.

it really doesnt make a big impact in ma life AT ALL (:
whats more important now is my life not ur comments.
lets have a heastart with ..

ABANG!..
haha,thanks for tagging and yes he is a bangladesh guy!!
LMAO! satisfied? and btw,what is wrong with going in a hotel?
you mean,you would always go hotel to get fucked? come on,
you people asked ME to think maturely,but hey. u mean,going in
a hotel is inmature of me? posting up pictures u presumed to be
in a hotel is inmature? whattahell,did ya momma tought u that?
hahahahaha. DONT BE A FUTILE HUMAN BEING. ^^

PASSERBY!..
i pity you your english is WORST then me,
whether or not i went in the hotel before or after...
why bother darling? haha. you wanna join along too? ^^

GUEST!..
ko pe tag cam kenal ah,sape ehk kau?
anyway.. upgrade tk upgrade.. mak ko branak kn aku pe
smpi nk tau die main puki aku ke..doggy aku ke..
haha,korang betol pe sundal taik ayam uh.
where got time hatetagging? ^^

EHK BINATANG,
wana ko tkmo nk mcm2 kate die menyebok ehk.
kau siapa ahk? mak die? bpk die? nk tnye lain kali
aku tros,tkpayah la nk tag tag ni sume..
ah,ape lagi kau nk tnye aku? tnye skrg la.. aku jwbkn.
hahaha,betul pe sundal... tag ah tag.. asal kan kau bahagia.
kasi kau tau satu bende uhk k,
kau kalau pikir aku affected geram marah ngan ko pe sial,
kao leh angkat kaki jalan. aku tkde Time uh nk lyn ni sume.
TIME LAMBAT G! aku da lalui ni sume la k. hahaha.
betul pe sundal ^^ nk tag tag uhk lagi... ah tag tag tag ^^

PASSERBY..!
tkde passerby,sejak nenek kau mude ke ape kau ingt aku tk trime
kau pe kate2? org ilang aku yg korg hatetag,aku skit pon tkde nk suprise.
im not amazed by you guys presence okay and i didnt say i did not accept
it neither do i accpt it. kau nk bobal matured nan aku? ko ni tgh uat pe ah?
tag aku bende2 gini? itu maturity kau? eh? hahaha,betul ah kau.
kalau kau rase aku tk matured letak gmbr gini,kau leh jalan jauh2 lah
fikir masak2 ape ko bobal. hahaha. tk masok akal. tk related langsong!
gmbr hotel dgn maturity? WITLESS CREATURE. hahaha.

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LETS GET THINGS RIGHT,
WHOEVER HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY,
JUST POUR IT OUT HERE AND BEAR IN MIND,
I DO NOT GET AFFECTED BY YOUR WORDS.
GO ON AND SHOW YOUR SENSE OF MATURITY.

I HAVE GOT NO TIME......AT ALL..
anyway,dont get overexcited to get to know
me hitting to a cheap hotel ok? hahaha.
get a life because i had got mine.

tooodles!

Tuesday, May 12, 2009,

why?

You were my everything;

Now you’re gone.

I don’t have the strength

To carry on.

Skies always seemed sunny

When you were here;

Now there’s nothing but gloom

In my atmosphere.

I loved you so much;

You were all I had;

Now my whole world

Is depressing and sad.

I’d like to start feeling

Other than blue,

But you were my everything,

What can I do?

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Is this all we have together?

Is this what love really is,

Yelling through a quarrel

And making up with a kiss?

Why can’t we get along?

Why do we have to fight?

We starve true love by day

And feed lust all through the night.

I wish we’d settle down;

I wonder where peace went.

Why do we pick at each other;

Why can’t we be content?

If this is what love is,

If tenderness has flown,

I’m thinking more and more,

It’s better to be alone.

Muhd Sidek Bin Fakri,
I love You Dearly.

I hope you could hear me close,

"you will never be replaced."

i slept thru the pain.

i can't stop crying.

he is different now,
he talks things out differently,
he acted differently.

i want to end this,
the hurt and humiliation is killing me.
i can't take this any longer.

Monday, May 11, 2009,

say goodbye.

Lagu ini menceritakan kisah

Tentang aku dan kasihku yang dulu

Begitu mesra bagai dunia

Milik kita berdua

Tapi semua hanya sekejap mata

Ia tak sebaik yang aku kira

Ku dibohongi dan disakitiIngin aku berlari

Semua ini memang salah diriku

Tak percaya pada teman-temanku

Yang selalu bilang dia selingkuh aduh...

Kini aku membuktikan sendiri

Dia bercumbu dengan yang lain

Hatiku bagai terisi sembilu aduh...

the truth hurts

as im typing this entry,i can't help it but to cry.my heart sank with such great force that was beyondmy capabilities to stop it.i guess anita was right.i should have listened to her.
what did i do to deserve this?what was the mistake i did thathad changed your feelings towards me?why would i be the one for you to seek a revenge on?why should i be the one to stuckwith all your revenge? why should you play behind my backwhen u can just say? why should you be meeting other girlSwhen u can just ask for a break up? why should u bother to playgames with me when it only hurts me? i just feel we should end this.no love without a trust. i guess my friends were right.and i guess your friends were right too. we should go on seperate ways.God,please help me =(

Sunday, May 10, 2009,

BOREDOM KILLS ME.

i sware to GOD above that my day today was PATHETHIC.
i have got nothing else to do,thought of heading to tamp to meet baby,

but i guess it would just be such a waste of time just to slack.

and i miss wana. why? because sometimes my sunday are the timespent for wana.

booo,come back tommorow or else i would lay down dying. haa.

at the same time,i miss baby badly toooo. get well soon baby,

text me if u're not going to work tommorow for if i could accompany you. ^^

i got nothing at all to do,i neglect revisions.

i faced this latptop since 10.30 in the morning not knowing what i did.

bought a cheap microphone an blame 1st bro for lending it to his friend

and not returning it back along with some brand new original cds. wtf.

soon after some few songs sang,fee baby came and that was when

i crapped and laughed alot,thanks for making today worth 2 hours.

hahah. and this was what we did before we wrapped up things. PICS!

i love it because its vv funny to me. ^^

she headed back home and guess what?

ray jebon webcammed with me for awhile to see each other

and get some updates about each other. so so so,

anyone who is in a mood of making new friends,

i have a friend here and his name is
Muhd Raihan preferred to be known as Ray,

he is now cocurrently serving ns and is 19 years of age.

anyone? hahaha.

alrights,baby called.

cheers ^^

Happy Mother's Day!

Greetings to one and all.

I'll have a head start with my beloved mum right here.

Just so you know fellars,

she's not like those vogue mum,
not like those sporty mum,

not like those "have whatever you like mum",
not those freedom mum,

BUT she's the BEST MUM ONE COULD EVER HAVE.

i don't mind being shouted,
i don't mind being punished,

i don't mind being nagged,
i don't mind shedding tears for you,

i don't mind being controlled,
i don't mind being your daughther.

What i really mind the most is the lost of your presence,

the lost of your love,
your care,
your tenderness.

the mother-like figure,
the mother-like attitude

that made me a person now.

for all i ranted here mum,

i just want you to know that i am no one without you.

i love you very much and i dare to sware no one

could ever replace you as the one that brought me to this world.

on this special day,i wish you a

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

Love you.

Moving on,Thursday marks the end of Midyearexamination.

(even though a'maths paper 2 is on weds)

and not to forget mt and eng oral would be on thursday

and friday would marking day!

cheers! this means that i would have time to catch up with my sleep.

i am totally deprived of sleep and i have to get that beauty sleep of mine back!

Speaking of which i mentioned earlier,
i guess i really screwed my mid year papers,

all of them . from english to amaths to emaths to history to ss to chem and to physics.
how can i be such a faggot and not study hard when im already in sec 5?

urgh,thats what dissapoints me most,

not being able to discipline myself to work hard and SACRIFISE.

and fyi,i am not looking forward to look at the outcome of my results.

it would surely feel a burning ache beneath my ribcage.

argharghargh.

Frankly,i never did have the intentions to apply for sec 5.

my mission my dreams was to be in Higher Nitec in Ite and pursue my dreams

soon after i've entered ITE. But Melacholy,I wasnt able to.

with 6 points for my L1R4,i still wasnt able to get to the course i wanted.

why? blame my english marks. well blame me too.

i think i knew the reason why i've gotten 4 for english.

for those n level batch last year,

do you remember about this one word essay? i can't really remember.

it might be about DREAMS and it was with the letter s.

how students make mistakes easily?

because they never did read the questions properly!

as for my stupidity,i only wrote ONE story about dreams

and thats it. thats where i got 4 for english.

ITE courses left for me are all engineering courses

and i fcking hate those courses because that wasnt what i wanted if

i were to enter ITE for Higher Nitec.

i remembered once that i promised ELMEBLUE to go on to the same course,

but hell yeah i broke it due to my pathethic english.

that explains why im here now,still.

stuck in this school for 5 years,trying to win the records of

primary school educations.

haish,oh wells.
lets just prepare for the worst and hope for the best guys.

^^

This picture above was taken last friday,
wana had a sleepover at my house on thursday and we went out the day after that.

we decided to meet anita and koshala for awhile and we did.

headed off to clementi and i was already late to meet bby.

im sorry wana that i have to let you go umi's house alone.

went on seperate ways,slacked with koshala and anita for a puff

and took the train to woodlands.

baby was already raging with fury and i could put my words
to a complete sentence because i knew it was my fault.
we slacked for awhile and had dinner.

we met again on monday to catch a movie.
baby was shopping too much and im jealous. haha.
we had lunch after buying a pair of tix to jangan tegur.
ratings for the movie? 5/10.

its just some typical ghost story and and and!
the tittle has nothing got to do with the story.

as for yesterday,
met umi wana and anita to pass umi the mother's day gift.
as wana and anita followed umi back home.

i met baby at cityhall and headed aljunied.
we had lunch in this new indian shop and never in my life,
experienced an indian stall selling chicken rice and its superb!
as soon as it was 8,we headed newton to meet his mum and dad's family side.
ate dinner and both of us were already full.
baby send me back hme and gave mum a suprise!

I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH BABY (: