simply because i never tend to purposely feel like being mad at anyone or something.there must ALWAYS be a cause to it. you know why? because i have been a very patiencegirl all this while and do you think this is what i deserve? its not the matter of friends or familys. it includes BOTH and every matters. why can't everyone in this world just make me feel like any other people in this world?why must i have this very challenging experience right at this age? why now? fine,you all can go oh thats life hunney,whether or not you hate it,you have to have it.

gosh,everyone has their own limits of patience alright,and right now still,since young i am holding on to my anger as so to avoid any arguments or quarelling or anything.

dejected,dissapoinments,miserable,off.

those mixed feelings circulating in me,myself.you people may think it seemed alright all e while.

hell NO it isnt,pretending is hard you know. im not a kinda girl who loves pretending to be someone else and hiding myself from the exposure of others but i have to do it. no one forced me to,no one at all. it was my choice cause whether or not i made a choice,no one seems to bother,

action speaks more than word. you can say any sorts of expression to make me belive you,yes its easy. but for once,you have to ponder are you the only one who had done those kinds of lame promises? pretending that you were there when you're not. huh?

alrights,im sorry. i was just letting things out,once for awhile.

its been decades since i hasnt written any source of personal feelings on the net,well here you go! hahahaha :) *giggles.

school's fine,someone made me smile today,haha,don't ask me who nor giving any sort of names.school ends at 3.30 today.to be specific enough,every tuesday regardless of even or odd week.decorated class again,and this time only two of us eh three. me Anis and lydia.

a simple one and had some relationshipsproblemsbtwn (em') and done.