This time,
I realised.

I managed to opened up my eyes wide to see who had been there
for me all this while and who has been acting like one.

I love my parents.
I love my bestfriend.
I love my 6 girlfriends.
I love ryn.
I love suriani.
I love yaya and yanie.
I love nick,barbara,zhy,nana and fiza.
I love my closeguybuddies :
zai , ju , fhiez ,aliff.. (you know who you are)

lastly,i love myself.

this is the part where i miss zul.
this is the part where i miss zai.
this is the part where i miss aidil.
this is the part where i miss din.
this is the part where i miss khai.

this is the part where i miss my youngest bro,syahfi

& this is the part where i miss the old me.

I'm sorry abah and ibu for making my life a burden for both of you.
I didnt mean to. I didnt realised how much you loved me that i kept
on dissapointing and made both of you worried of me everytime
i'm home in the morning,everytime i just sit and stare without saying a thing.

it keeps me thinking yet i didnt halt all that.
i guess i should stop looking like a fool, acting like one.
i dont fit in to the new surrounding.

i'm not wild enough neither am i strong enough
to keep competing over nothing. nothing that is worth the fight.
just let it be now,i really want to change.

i know,no use saying when action speaks louder then words.
but i mean this. im starting school soon, this shouldnt be
the attitude i should set up. i be going down.

Lyn hanis binte redzuan,guide me along.