lets begin.

i've always wanted sincerity.
i've always wanted the best.
i've always wanted happiness.

but nothing that i ever wanted comes to life.
all of you guys should start appreciating whats there for you.

unlike my life,
my family life,
my love life,
my feelings..

i have been facing problems with my family nowadays.
family? my family consists of just dad mum and lil bro.
i disregard both that humanbeing in my house as part of me.
they've ruined my life. and to dad and mum,
i left with nothing else i could say,nothing else i should give in.

if you both dont need me,then there is nothing much
for me to stay here and just die.

thanks to anybody who has been cheering me up.
thanks zaini and shafiz for the treat.
thanks descartes guys for the laughthers.
thanks to you for making me feel like shit.

and btw,this is my blog.
i have the freedom to blog about anything that i shall say.
and if ever i was mentioning about you
then i should'nt be sorry because i don't talk bad about you.

this never goes out particularly to just one person
this goes out to all.

what's best knowing people's life?
its just a blog. every girl loves to blog.
like a diary. ryte girls?

you read,you keep quiet.

now lets move on to lovelife.
she already knew.
girl,don't blame him alright?
he's not to be blamed for all this.
blame me for all you want.

and to you,
guess you were a nice guy,
thanks for being humble all this while.
i never thought i could go this far.

"i guess we should onli be frends...
im juz happy wif her....and her onli...
may u find the ryte guy...."

i'll just have some words before i go..

it's nice that i get to know you..
humble,funny,kind..all that i ever wanted.
i never fall for someone that easy.
but the first time i looked at you..
my heart felt differently..

that deep crush that i had turns out to be deeper
and thus love.. but whenever we chatted,
i never get too personal cause i already knew you had her..
i kept that feeling safe inside my heart,
hoping that nobody could ever feel what i felt
nobody could know how i felt but just you.

i have been waiting for the time for me to tell you..
but time stops every of my intentions i had..
for now,for your own best,for my own best,for her,
i'll just put eveyrthing to a stop.
i'll stop every single thing i have been doing.
i'll just have to let it go..

may you have the best in life
may you be happy
may there's someone to be there when you're in need
take good care of yourself bwoi..

=(