dear diary,

i was in doldrum all day today.
without realising droplets of tears kept strolling down my cheeks.

i never knew what my mom and fhiez's dad said was true about her.
ironically,we are at losing wits . true zai.

but really. this is the real time to be optimist
frm this incident,i will be able to see,
which is the friend that stands by my side and
which is one that will watch me dying alone here.

for whoever who might think that none of your friends are important,
think again. you're mentally disabled to be there all alone w/o guidance.
if you think a friend was just for company of you being alone, well guys.

you might be having some minor errors in your thinking.
everyone have the rite to think whats best for them.
being confidence and arrogant isnt wrong at all but being
overlimit and unrealistic would be the best that leds to failure.

who wants to see themselves as a failure?
nobody would not even me.
just that it will happen to us sooner or later.
now that would be the perfect time for you to stop yielding
and think positive for whats to come.

remember mirah,
take denunciation as someone who are covetous of you.
don't let this small minor miscue pull you down.
green-eyed people have always got bad intentions.

no to say that they are animals but they are humans like us.
just because the usage of brains were misused badly,"this" occured.
my culpability for what i have been acquiesent was with willings.

nothing more or less i could think of for now.
thanks sharifah and yamin for the thruth.
thanks zai,fhiez,fiq,phyque,helmi,ju for your side.
thanks mom for your guidance and advices.
thanks fhiez and zai for believing in me.

im not in a mood to enjoy for this comming night tour.
so,
-i went shopping with 60 bucks huh?
-all that were'nt sincere huh?
-having small matters like class tshirts
to be brought as a big matter huh?

i can't forced you to like me
nor i can force you to hate me.

for all i know is that,
this isnt a win-win situation.
i don't want to win pride or dgnity.
i've save em' safely.

this is not sacarsm,this is what that comes within deep inside.
your choice to believe because afterall you're the one who has
been lying to yourself to hate each and single one of us,
turn by turn.

i shall continue imperative in my bedroom.
night lovelies. =(