Is it deserving for me to be living in the world with a human
full of vengance and anger? Do i deserve all those vulgarities?

it seems to me that many from my observation
are having their individual relationship problems now.
what is it with relationship nowadays?

no denials,i missed baby very much but the fact
that we have been having arguments for the past few days
since the outbreak of the issue we had that week,
it didnt seemed to have a stop to it.

you know what a feel?
i feel tired.i felt that i had enough of all this.
i felt that i dont deserved this.

to you dear,thought you might not be reading this..
your presence made my life worthwhile even for a second.
knowing you made me feel secured and loved.
you told me you have forgotten about that women of your past,
what now? you suddenly remembered her and it got stuck on your brain?

that was it? no being able to forget about your ex
because your mum's relation with hers were in good terms?
i want me to understand your situation. yeah,right.
for your own information. i did mister,
but u expect me to comprehend every single matters in you.
wont you want to spare some thoughts and feelings for me?
why would you have to keep her picture,almost all when you've forgotten about her?
am i a replacement for her for just awhile? was that all that you've wished for?
because i dont deserved to be loving someone who dedicate more of his
love for his beloved ex. look,things now have gone haywire and its beyond
my capabilities to sort things out between us.

im not saying i've lost hope for you totally,
but all this arguments that are re-occuring.
its just not me. its just not my style of life.
i dont do that in a relationship. you caused it mister..
i just dissapointed and speechless with everything.

i dont know how to talk to you.
i dont know how to cry for you.
i dont know what i want.
i dont know if this is true.

i really dont know.
and at this moment of time,
nothing else matters but you.

sad to say.
you didnt bother.

its as if nothing had happened.
you know what? i'll do anything for your lovesake.
giving u a choice will help you and i'll help you along.
if you really want that lady of the past back,
you can have it. I GIVE UP.

and please,
im not telling anyone our problem.
it was just a feeling for me.
and now. i felt like i dont deserved this.

end of story.farewell.