i was admitted to the hospital.
all because to avoid the heartache i was enduring to another pain.
i never regret doing this but for all i knew i dissapointed those
who really cared for me,my parents and my friends.

nevertheless,
the person i thought would be the one who cared the most,
was'nt with me at the point of time i needed his care and love the most.
i couldnt stop shedding tears over and over again everytime i think of him.

all those vulgarities,harsh words thrown to me,
i swallowed deep inside. i had to force myself to sleep through the pain.
i had to endure myriads of holes being injected. blood collected.
doctors approaching me to talk about this. counsellor.
i knew ive wasted much time over this matter.

yet i can never forget about him.
listen guys,one thing i learnt from this is that,
never use the word DEPRESSION to attempt anykind of injury to yourself.
never make a painful problem become a serious problem.

thank you Mr thomas,u really gave me a piece of your mind. ^^

and because of this,
i've lost total interest in studies.
i no longer was keen to study about any subject.
i have not been comming to school for weeks,making use of the
Medication Cert to excused myself from school.
Being nagged by parents every single night
because to them,i've changed. but i knew,i'm still the same.

moving on,
last friday morning was grandma's last breathe.
it was such a dejected sight to see her die infront of me.
she is no longer here with us now.
haish,i love you nenek.

ending off,
O level is in months to come.
i wish i could mug hard.
bye.